Well, I’m a Capricorn and my mom is a Cancer. I’m 19 yrs old now and ever since I can remember I been independent. I would rather do lots of things on my own when I was a kid. I will save my earnings or babysitting money to buy my own things. When I was 13 I bought my own cellphone and paid my own bill. Until my mom said she would start to pay for it, using family plan. but anyway I’m the youngest and sometimes It seems like I’m the oldest. I barley ask my mom for money.( once every blue moon) she always gives my older siblings money. and when I finally ask her she gets mad at me and gives me a hard time, she naggs and gives me a lecture. And its takes me weeks to plan to ask her. I go over every thing in my head before I ask. and I abosulety hate asking people for things. especially money.

Its like now, she expects to much of me. like its hard to explain. Its like I’m not of real importance and I’m the teenager and my other siblings are in their 20′s and 30′s and they get the special treatment. She doesnt really trust me either. idk why its not like I’m out doing coke or something. I’m just like a regular 19 year old who likes to go out and party and have fun but after my work is done. She’s like a nagg and always trying to keep me trapped in the house. And when she calls and I dont answer she just jumps to conclusions and tells me since you act like you can’t call and answer the phone you find a way to pay your phone bill. ( I just lost my job recently) and I told her okay then and hanged up.

I’ mean she a good mm and all I give her credit for beginning the only parent who supports us but goodness its like I just want to smack her sometimes and then she’ll get all in my face and stuff like that. I don’t really get along with my siblings that well other except one. she’s a virgo. one of them I just can’t stand sometimes, she’s a Aquarius.

One day we were fighting because her very hardheaded lying daughter lied and said I pulled her hair but I didnt. I told her and her sisters to clean up because my mother doesn’t want a messy house and they made the mess so clean up. and she catches an attitude and starts talking shittt to me so I pushed her on the couch and she tried to hit me while running in my moms room until my sis came back form work. ( she lives with us and she’s 32 with her 3 girls) So me and my bff were on the couch watching t.v and then out of no were my sis pulled, and she didnt just pull it but yanked it, my hair. So I tired to pin her down on the couch and not trying to fight her but she kept hitting me so I got pissed and we started fighting. I went crazy I gave her a black eye that I wasn’t sorry about because you just don’t know how much stuff I hold in from them. There’s so much.

And when I start snapping on them they look at me and say I’m crazy because years of hurt and etc I’ve held in will come out. My mom and my bff stopped it and then my mom was like if I start fighting in her house again I can pack my bags and leave. But she didnt tell my older sis that. She the so called eldest so way didnt she get on her about it. idk. I’m just tired of everything.

I stay to myself, I don’t mess with anyone unless they come at me. It seems like I can trust my friends more then my family. but at the same time it seems like I can’t trust no one but me, myself, and I . I feel myself ticking, like a time bomb. I feel me finally snapping on really going psycho , thats why I prefare to stay to myself in peace befog I go crazy.

I’m sorry Its kind of long