well i have been reading a lot of online articles about anorexia lately and it got me super scared. . I mean am i anorexic or like all these people around me are anorexic or is it that those articles are simply hyped up ??

Well in my part of the country, anorexia as such is not common, i mean i have seen girls starving but never someone getting hospitalized for it.

I am obsessed with my weight. True. But every girl around me is. Even old men, my fathers frens talk about staying fit and lean.

I starve myself for three to four days once every month to stay in shape. Otherwise i will just bloat up. But i am strong ant malnourished. And other young girls starve too.

I sometimes pleasure eat and feel guilty but i never throw up and purge. I can control whatever i want. And yeah i enjoy what i eat.

I feel so so so so sad when i am a bit chunky and i starve to get back in shape. I think about staying thin all the time but it never hampers my life or productivity. I do it side by side and happily. I dont get depressed over it but yeah being thin makes me feel beautiful and gives me happiness.

So would i be anoerexic ? No, am not so sick that i have to get hospitalized but yeah i am conscious and making efforts. That how i have been for the past three years and never fallen ill.