Sorry the last time i asked it was a real painful typing with crying.

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This time i made it in points but the 11 point is lengthy please bear with my excessive typing.
Here are the Videos of her after NDV CSF tap after struggling with CD

Please Bear with my EXCESSIVE TYPING, SORRY.

1)She had CD on Sep 24 09 treated with NDV
2) she had Vomiting on Dec 22 09
3) starved for a week by VET for vomiting
4) diagnosed myself as IBD(Inflammatory Bowel Disease) as no VET was ready to treat her and tried to control by diet but it worked only for few days and she would start vomiting again(this diet changing process occured throughout her life)
5)I gave Dexamethasone on Jan 18 2010 and she had total paralysis for 1.5 months. I nursed her back and she started to walk again. During this period no vomiting at all
6)Gave her LDN(low Dose Naltrexone) 4 months later to stop vomiting
7)Gave her Cyclosporine again on Dec 2010. she started to have breathing like she had obstruction in her nose in mid dec 10 8) Put on Pred 5mg and ATOPICA(150 mg for 10 kg body) on 1-1- 2011 and 20 days later on 18-1-11 she had blood where she was sleeping around 5-10ml.Her WBC count was 30,300.
9) Stopped all meds and treated for possible ulcer
10) Again started with ATOPICA on feb 17,18 and on 19 th she bleed 5ml through her nose in front of me. VET said a possible Nasal Tumor had developed.
11) On Feb 21 2011 7 AM she was fine according to my father when he her antacid Sucralfate solution.When i came at 10:30AM i was waiting for the biggest pain of my life.Her Jerks because of CD were not there and she wasn’t moving.I knew she had passed away.I took her out of there like a small baby and roamed carrying her lifeless body.Her mouth was covered with vomit of sucralfate.There were ants in her mouth.A dog who never liked even a fly sitting on her body was having ants in her mouth.I kept her body for4 hours and took a lots of photos and buried her backyard,said a tearful good bye,all present were crying.I was with her starting from disease 09-24-09 to 02-21-11with all kind of disease first by nature and to treat that disease then by medications by me.

I feel so guilty of using meds on her
She might never forgive me keeping her alive in pain
She wagged her tail,saw in my eyes on 21-2-11 6PM last time i saw her alive
PS:She always had 102.2 temp no matter what antibiotics were given.On 1-20-11 her wbc was 30,300 on Jan 20 2011

Was it the best thing to keep her alive through all this?

PS:: When VETS said she would die a year back , the med’s i gave her kept alive for well over a year , but ultimately looks like med’s given by me killed her.

PPS::I am from India the VETS don’t even have a Stethescope for animals. I begged them to do the simple CBC. You can imagine about the rest of diagnostic procedure.