Five years ago, God saved my life when I wrote a suicide note on the back of my quiz. He gave me a message in my head to tell someone about it. I did. I got 11 weeks of help. I’m now 19 years old and still alive because of him. He knows I have a boyfriend who’s 16 years old and has epilepsy and aspergers syndrome (like me). What God doesn’t understand is this: normal females go through these sexual phases, and sometimes I look at porn websites. Every time he catches me doing that, he gives me warnings or creates bad things to happen in my life (ants coming in my house, mom catching me looking at that porn stuff and telling her a lie saying that I was looking for pictures of killer whales, my minor stomach ach, strange or horrid dreams of my dead aunt, minor fights with my boyfriend, etc…). What’s going on?
it’s not like the devil has gotten inside my veins. If you were to suggest that I read the bible, think again because I don’t need to know how horrible of a life Jesus Christ had to put up with. My life is just about as horrible as his.