my brother has always been a bully. he will find anything he can to harrass me about, and in the past four years, has gotten violent. he will slug me, throw me on the ground, or shove me against a wall. (by the way he is 18, im 13. he weighs 200+ pounds, i weigh under 100.) just today, for instance, we were at my aunts house for easter. i was on the couch talking with my cousin, and he comes up behind me, licks his hands, and rubs them all over me, including through my hair. he is such a creep!!!! so i am mad now, and i am leaving to take a shower, when he shoves me, and as i am trying not to fall and stumbling all around, he sticks his foot out and trips me and my skirt flies up (in front of everyone!!!! even men!!) and my face hits the floor. i was so angry!!!! and hearing there laughs echo through my head made me want to cry!!! i already struggle with depression and anxiety, and here he is, surely not helping!!! i cant help but be so angry and upset!!! how do i cope with these feelings?? and he calls me ugly so often that now, when i look in the mirror, i am so disgusted with myself. he has damaged me emotionally, and i know i can’t go back to the way i was before. my parents dont get it, and when i try to talk to my brother, he either mocks me or gets angry, so please dont say talk to them or a therapist!! please just give me some advice on how to cope with these feelings!!!